There is more reasons to now believe that I cannot wear that necklace and anything diamonds now.Thinking that just wearing it for a day will do no harm, I took the necklace out to wear to Priscilla's wedding.In November 2004, HE got me the neckalce. After wearing it, problems between us arose. He realised that it could be the neckalce that causes the string of problems and I had to take it off then.Since then, I did not wear it anymore.After wearing it on Saturday, a major quarrel broke out between us yesterday. It made me cry real hard and bad. I was so afraid that things would really come to an end then. I love him too much, till I cannot bear to lose him at all. I know he was in his most angry stage then. Till he bang the table...After sometime, we both cooled down and talked abit in a more cool manner.Things seems to be back to normal. We went to watch a movie just now. Followed by dinner at our favourite Lau Pa Sat.Sometimes, I really think that I am a bad girl. I do not want to let go of him. Stubborn and selfish? Yes I am. On the other hand, I am looking for another guy, knowing that there is no ending between us. Evil? Yes I am as well.What am I actually doing and thinking???But I think I will not and do not want to hide anything from him...I know he would like to see me be happy as well...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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